Mythology based vs reality based spiritual beliefs

I believe it will take a really serious crisis in this world before people will really value my rational reality focused spiritual ideas and my advanced meditative exercise techniques that help connect one more deeply spiritually to reality. Crises makes one have to be more spiritually connected to reality in order to survive. I know that from a lifetime of struggling to survive in this world. My survival here required I be extremely good at preparing for and dealing with one crises after another in my life. Being extremely neurodivergent, make survival in this world extremely difficult.

Mythology based beliefs from the past tends to be at the core of traditional religions created in the distant past. Mythology can be attractive to those who prefer fantasy over hard reality. So many people have mental health issues in our world as a result of buying into a lot of the irrational mythology that is circulating in this world that weaken their grip on reality. Mythology is like junk food in that it tends to be intoxicating and support unhealthy results in this world.

Autocratic Mythology/Narrative Based Spiritual Energy is Destroying 0ur World

Back in March of 1992 I had two near death experiences due to the stress of trying to reach the world with my spiritual perspective. My heart was racing, I could not sleep because I had to consciously focus on my breathing to keep my heart functioning safely. I had done extreme physical exercise for quite a while previously and learned breathing techniques to bring my heart safely back under control afterwards. So I had a good technique. Eventually I could not stay awake and a near death experience happened. I had to really fight to not die and leave this planet in the first near death experience. The second near death experience was not like the nightmare type experience the first one was. In the second I connected with the love energy of my Mother, so it was a nice experience. It was my mother that enabled me to incarnate on this planet.

After these two near death experiences, I had to question everyone of my spiritual beliefs and develop better spiritual beliefs that would enable me to better survive in the very challenging spiritual reality that existed in this spiritually backwards world I was living in. Autocratic spiritual beliefs are like an addictive drug. They have an irrational hold on you that prevents one from seeing reality more clearly. Autocratic spiritual energy creates leadership both on the spiritual level and in positions of power in this world. Empires die when they become so autocratic and addictive to power that they lose touch with reality and can not face the fact that they have charted a course of action based on misinformation and have developed a distorted view of reality based on a false narrative that they have become addicted to.

Traditional religion also get addicted to false narratives or mythologies. We need to grow up spiritually and become more rational/reality focused in what we believe spiritually. I had to do this myself in order to survive and have the spiritual beliefs that would enable me to survive. I also had to intensify my physical spiritual/meditative training program. I had to learn to train at an intensity no one else could train at while also focus on getting the nutrition I needed to enable me to handle such training. My heart beats extremely hard at times when I do my intense meditative exercises these days, but it can handle it. I no longer fear my heart will not be able to handle any stress that will put it into a very intense sort of “fight or flight” state.

I am use to people not understanding me or believing what I tell them about myself. Or respecting my unique view of the world or what I have of value to the world spiritually. It really takes a serious crises to force people to separate themselves from the mythologies/narratives/propaganda that they have been strongly indoctrinated from an early age by the society the were born into. I can shock some people into seeing reality more clearly when they are more receptive to me due to facing challenges in their lives that force them to be open to something new spiritually in order to survive. Surviving a very serious crises can sometimes require one do some really deep soul searching and then have the willingness to become open to an entirely new perspective on reality which challenges ones core spiritual beliefs that one has had ones entire life up to that time. It has been over 30 years after my near death experiences and in that time I have developed so much in what I have to offer to this world spiritually.

I am a neurologically different spiritual pioneer trying to get my very valuable spiritual theories and meditative techniques and new spiritual astrology system out to the public. I have so much valuable stuff here on WordPress. It may not be perfect, but it should motivate people to further develop what I have started with a similar spiritual intent as I had.

Personal information for those who want a serious relationship with me

I am Thomas Goodwin, 70 years old now, but very healthy and fit due to my diet and physical Spiritual training, single, live in San Antonio TX, survive on a veteran pension since I am over 65, poor, and served in the Navy during Wartime, I practice celibacy like a lot of intensely Spiritual people do: meaning I am not looking for a romantic relationship since I need all of my focus directed towards my spiritual mission.

I am a neurologically different with limited visual memory and finer motor skills. I struggle my whole life to survive in a world that I did not fit in. The educational system did not work for me. The job market did not work for me. The Religious/Spiritual institutions did not work for me. The media did not work for me and the medical industry did not work for me. I survive because of the charity of my parents most of my life. I had to develop an extremely strong sense of Spiritual purpose in order to survive in this world and not just give up and allow the stress to destroy my health and kill me. In 1992 the stress came really close to killing me with two near death experiences happening.

I became incredibly obsessed with my desire to make a big impact on the world at that point so as to change the the terrible Spiritual state this world was in as I perceived it. As time went on my diet became stricter and more fine tuned to my needs, since this was not hard for me to do, since my will power was strong and I instinctually knew that my survival and purpose was more important than the temporary pleasure of junk food. I grew up arround natural foods, so I got a head start on realizing how important health was to ones survival and well being. Survival depended on the ability to defend yourself an awful lot when you are Neurologically different in the way that I was.

Sexually I became aware of the dangers posed by getting involved with someone whose lack of understanding could undermine the confidence in your self required to take on the challenges that being different you automatically face. Deep Spiritual connection is often replaced by the drug like affect of sexual intimacy. I thus was celibate a lot of my life and completely since the year 2000. No orgasms with a woman or anyone since 1983 when I ended a 1 year romantic relationship with a woman, but never lived with her. I learned at that time that the bond created in a sexual relationship had a strong affect on ones Spiritual energy, so I I avoided that type of spirtual bonding ever since. I needed all my spirtual energy for the Spiritual mission I was on that revolved around developing a new Spiritual astrology system dealing with the so important physical Spiritual connection that exists between us and the vaste physical universe we are part of and it’s cyclical nature.

When we become more advanced Spiritual we understand that individual Spirits like us are collectively the most powerful force in this universe and Spiritually responsible for how well it functions. We the people have the power Spiritually, not some automatic all powerful pulling spirit/God. As we feel more responsible and empowered Spiritually we then develop the will to take on bigger things and handle the pain that comes with taking on really big challenges and responsibilities. One can not solve problems if one is not connected to the pain or harm associated with it. A lot of people have their ability to feel by eating an unhealthy diet, over indulging in sex and harmful drugs.

We need to finally grow up Spiritually and start really feeling things strongly and develop the strength and maturity to handle the strong emotions that power the Spiritual and when properly channeled can help one to achieve incredible things.

Scientists things they know so, but until they develop a lot more Spiritual maturity will still be like kids playing with toys, except the toys they are playing with cause very serious problems in this world. At this point in my life, I have a very strong one track mind which is determined to bring the better Spiritual theories and techniques I developed over decades of extreme efforts to the world. The astrology system I developed in conjunction with the development of these Spiritual theories and meditative techniques is really my crowning glory. It is beyond me to fully understand and utilize the astrology system I formulated.

A lot of what I started can be taken so much further once a huge number of people with Spiritual expertise put their heads together and use their unique skills to perfect what I started a lot further. I am 70 years old and I need to get in the spotlight soon so that blthe most of what I have to offer can be squeeze out of me before my spirit moves on to new lives and challenges beyond this one. I hope this blog makes good sense to those who read it because it came out like valuable stream of consciousness.

Here is my current physical/Spiritual work out program I am on:. Every morning I do an intense 2.5 mile meditative run/walk starting out hard and slow down as I get tired especially after the first half of the distance covered, then in the afternoon or evening I do a 1.5 intense meditative walk. Everything other day I do strength training trying to exercise as many muscle groups other than my legs that are well trained by running. I do short sprints when doing running or walking when ever I am motivated by traffic, dogs or anything that may affect my meditative state I am in. Also stretch my back and legs with some squats carefully done at the beginning of each session. Also do other stretches I find of value to me after exercise band training.

In this spiritually backwards world abuse of all kinds is systematic.

I am aware of this subject personally so will approach it from that perspective. Being born neurologically different with limited visual memory and associated problems that result from that and having limited finer motor skills, I have face this type of abuse in all types of forms my whole life.

It started at an early age for me. The educational system back in the late 1950’s was not equipped to deal with me and taught me in second grade to read using stories that did not interest me enough to easily comprehend. Also could not draw pictures of family members well enough for the teacher to accept them. So ended being held back a grade. A teacher that was insensitive to me made have added to the problem. I did manage to adjust to the educational system, but just got through it in the early grades. In highschool I did do well, but I had to put in an awful lot of focus into it and did have times where I was on the very edge of really messing up, but my developing ability to handle crises got me through. But college was different and demanded more advanced visual memory capabilities and conformity to ideologies and propaganda that were based on collective visions that I could not tune into or relate to. So I did not get anything of value as to the job market from it.

After dropping out of college the first time, I remember going to an employment agency and the slick talking guy getting frustrated by my inability to convince someone to hire me. My interests in the occult and the spiritual was not what they needed. My job I had for a year at the local door factory that I got on my own without help from employment agency was extremely stressful and I had very painful digestive problems most of the time there. My health made a year there about all I could take. I did later serve two years in the Navy, which was the only option I found, but struggled there because of my typing limitations. A lot of fields require quite a bit of visual memory in order to perform them without spacing out and becoming lost as to what to do next. For someone that has normal visual capabilities it is often hard for them to understand this.

After the Navy, which I had no future in due to typing limitations, I had almost 2 years of community college, but found no career path and left despite having the GI bill supporting me. My spiritual skills were not marketable or fully developed at this time and the challenges in my life had made me to deep spiritually to put up with the limitations of traditional religions. How I survived is very complicated, but my family did help support my extremely frugal life style an awful lot.

Anyway, I feel I was abused for being neurologically different with unique abilities by both the educational system and the job market. This was the result of a political/economic system set up that was extremely insensitive to anyone who could not readily conform to it. This “one size fits all” mentality permeated all facets of it. Traditional religions and science were both based on this and the job market was so affected by this very limited perspective.

An awful lot of people are abused in our society and become toxic spiritually as a result and hence the USA has an extremely high prison population and the cycle of abuse is quite strong here. But, the rest of the world has a similar abusive climate expressed in different variations.

I find that businesses often set up a business model that does not allow for abuse to be handled well. When someone is abused, a business should have a built in mechanism to help ensure the abuse will be handled well and that the victim of the abuse is not further hurt by rigid one size fits all rules they have in place. People who are different need to be valued since their uniqueness often gives them a special perspective and value that can improve how thing function on the job and in society.

We all need housing and homelessness is a really serious problem in this world. Often domestic type abuse happens in housing, yet people are forced to sign leases that do not have safeguards in them to allow an abuser to readily escape without financial abuse also being added to the situation. I dealt with this type of situation recently with my life threatened and valuable and personal property destroyed with the police coming and doing nothing and now am dealing with the consequences of breaking a lease even though I informed the apartment management about it. They need to eat this expense and make sure in the future they have a better was of handling this. Leases should be easier to get out of when abuse or other serious reasons exist. Any business model that does not allow exceptions for these serious and special circumstance need to be forced to eat the expense involved. We need systemic changes in this world and it all starts on the spiritual level. That is why a neurologically different spiritual pioneer like me is needed in this world.

I found out recently in a blood test that my red blood cells were too big and that my thyroid gland was not producing enough hormones. Two B vitamin deficiencies(B12, and folate)usually cause that problem which main symptom is anemia. I told the doctor that I took a lot of those vitamins and was on a training program to become healthier. I had just left the abuse situation in Las Vegas and moved to San Antonio with my sister’s help. But with the energy demands of getting help from the VA to find housing my health had been affected. But the doctor told me that I was probably not absorbing the vitamins and further blood test needed to be done and was monologuing and not listening to me explain how different I was from other people. Telling me my nutritional plan didn’t work and that I was not my handling my health well on my own just instantly turned me against this doctor and I refused the further blood tests.

I then proceeded to do mostly slow meditative runs of over 100 miles a week for the next 5 weeks The type of meditative running I do, I designed myself and no one else’s does the way I do them. They are extremely difficult to do. I had adequate energy and did not feel anemic before the blood test and I definitely did not feel anemic while doing all that running, although I am now only doing about 60 miles a week. (Edit: 6 miles a day in a morning and evening run now) I am good at research and did thoroughly research the conditions the doctor told me I had and took my own path to deal with it. A neurologically different body is harder for the medical field to handle.

I hope this gives you food for thought. It is hard to cover so much at once in such a broad subject.

Developing a new Astrology System 2021

Edit: April 3, 2024 made hopefully final changes to astrology system. These changes are present in my Astrology Formula blog post. …After having near death experiences in March 1992, I really started to move away from any reliance on traditional astrology and toward developing a totally new system, although some characteristics of the system may turn out to be similar to some degree to the old system that was developed in an age before science learned an awful lot about the greater universe we live in. I had to actually tune myself out as much as possible from the old system and it’s original pictures in the sky approach. And avoid relating on the subject with others that focus on the old system..

I found that I became like a gold miner looking for the mother load having to first find out where there was no gold in order to find out where the real strike of gold was. Trial and error is very much involved when trying to discover a new understanding about anything especially in an area that has really not been explored in a rational way much for quite some time. The spiritual is such an area. And the universal physical-spiritual connection that astrology should effectively deal with is so vital to being able to tune into and understand how the spiritual actually works on a really advanced level..

It is now 2024, so I have been working at developing a new Astrology System for many decades in my role as a neurologically different spiritual pioneer. I have learned an awful lot in the process and developed more effective and advanced spiritual/meditative training techniques, along with more rational spiritual theories that better interface with the challenging physical reality that we all now exist in.

It is hard to think outside the box when the ideas and beliefs circulating psychically in the world around you are very different. Strong beliefs with strong support from huge number of believers strongly impact those in societies and groups dominated by those beliefs. Religions have strong impact in this world and so do the beliefs currently accepted by Science. The beliefs that dominate the spiritual and astrology communities have similar type impact within their communities and beyond them to quite a degree.

Our spiritual programming has a strong impact on how empower we become spiritually and how effective we can become in a world and universe we as individual spirits play such a dominant role in. We are not just instinctual beings that a limited one size fits all approach works well on.

I left a disaster for me in Las Vegas recently, but this disaster impelled me to desperately look for ways to improve my astrology system and make it fit myself, the over 20 celebrity charts I had access to, and the charts I have done for all those I had a close spiritual connection with in the past.

I can not cover everything here, but I have a huge volume of information on this wordpress site that evolved as I evolved with the latest post being better than my previous unedited ones.

Reincarnation of the continuous type is the best spiritual theory

Reincarnation forces one to accept responsibility for the reality one finds oneself in. Most spiritual beliefs in this spiritually backwards world do not respect the reality we are in right now enough and this is not good. Life is very challenging and one has to become really strong and aware spiritually to handle it. It goes in cycles within this life and beyond this life. One has to own the challenging conditions one finds oneself in in order to heal and overcome them.

Fantasy beliefs may feel better, but mastering reality and it’s challenges brings about more positive results. Believing in continuous reincarnation takes a lot of spiritual maturity to handle and thus reap it’s benefits. Having either another life or another cycle within this life gives us other opportunities to change and improve the pattern we find ourselves in. Cycles of abuse including self abuse can be ended and toxic energy can be healed. Miracles can happen when one gets an extremely strong spiritual grip on reality so that one can better figure out challenging situations and thus make the most of them..

No one lives forever, so life will eventually end, but with the cyclical nature of reality each end results in a new beginning. With each new cycle one can take what one has learned from the past cycle to help one reach a higher level of competence in handling the challenges that reality in the new cycle offers you and be better able to contribute ones value to make the current reality around you that you share with others a better one and help others to do the same.

An intoxicating addiction to the spiritual beliefs of the past is harming spiritual progress

The addiction or drug like intoxication to the spiritual beliefs of the past is preventing more spiritual progress on this spiritually backwards planet. Spiritual programming is held deep within us and thus is not easy to change(improve on). Often hard spiritual lessons in times of crises is required to get someone to upgrade their spiritual programming.

In this spiritually backwards world we need a religion that actually works a lot better than those is the past. I know through personal experience how ineffective the predominating spiritual beliefs are. We can do so much better! That is why I am a neurologically different spiritual pioneer.

We do not need to progress at such a slow pace spiritually in a world that need people to progress a lot further spiritually. Some spiritual theories just work a lot better than others. Those who choose to progress at a faster rate spiritually will reap the rewards of doing so.

Progressing a lot further spiritually requires playing a bigger spiritual role during these challenging times here on this Earth. The belief in some overly dominating God disempowers people and harms their ability to take on more spiritually. Autocratic type leaders need to be a thing of the past with the power shifting more to individuals. We need to question and challenge all spiritual theories in order to improve on them. We do not need the belief in some type of autocratic all powerful type spiritual entity preventing people from developing more effective spiritual theories.

People become addicted to the beliefs of the past and become sort of intoxicated in them. We need to develop become more rational and accept more practical spiritual theories that actually work in the challenging physical world we all exist in right now.

The physical (earth in astrology)is vital to all of us spiritually and to our eternal existence. A religion of real value will emphasize bringing about positive change in this most spiritually challenging physical reality and not diminish its importance.

This world needs a really rational spiritual pioneer like me!

Being “neurologically differently abled” with limited visual memory and resultant very basic type visualization skills, I am unable to tune into a lot of the mythology this planet is lock in to! A lot of this mythology I could not tune into is contained in the literary “classics” and in the religious/spiritual writings of the past. In order to survive I have had to make the most of the limited visual abilities I had! I had to aim  these basic visual skills I had strongly into very rational spiritual beliefs(theories) which I had to develop since this spiritually backward world did not offer much of this! I am 68 years old, so it has been a very long process and very intense. Since my survival in this world depended on my spiritual skills, I could push myself like almost nobody else could and do this over a very long type with most of my support to survive in a hostile world coming from family and close friends!

Polarization which is so strong in our world and I believe springs from the “tribalism” that dominated our past. Our religions tend to have this type of tribalism and the ego inflating energy that comes with it! Most religions and spiritual organizations have this quality to them, along with science which tends to be dismissive of spiritual uniqueness! This “one size fits all” or “their size fits all” mentality really limits how deeply they can really tune into the challenging physical reality we all exist in right now! The spiritual underlies everything, and how well we tune into it will determine how capable we will be able to spiritually tune into this really challenging reality we exist in! Science (which has a dominant influence in this world) tends to even go into fields such as medicine and psychology that are strongly affected by spiritual/human individual differences is really being held back by how backward this world is spiritually! Intuition that enables one to really tune into the individual differences in ourselves and others tends to be ignored to quite a degree by science due to its overly rigid approach and it tendency to discount how strong a role the spiritual actually plays.

I was brought up in a home that had a focus on natural foods and had a healthy skepticism toward the Medical establishment! Being so unique neurologically, it was so important to my survival to use my intuition to figure out what was good/healthy for me! I did not take much in the way of pain killers or medications, but did take some vitamins and health foods. I learned to handle pain well as a result, which was important to my future survival in a world that is hostile to anyone as different as I am! I learned to use my intuition and was meditating before I knew what it was! I became familiar with alternative medicine, and alternative spiritual beliefs. I do not do well taking most drugs or medications because they tend to interfere with my ability to tune into the spiritual strongly enough to survive in a world that tends to destroy so many people that are “neurologically unique like I am! I have a healthy skepticism of where science is now at for good reason! I would not have survive(would be died early in my life), if I had not been really skeptical about how much the so called “experts” in our society really knew of value to me!

I also needed to be programmed with a lot more rational/effective spiritual theories that would enable me to handle a more heavy dose of reality than most people have to deal with! Traditional religions/spiritual beliefs just were not good enough for me with their focus on mythology at the expense of practicality and workability in the challenging world we exist in! How well we do spiritually in this world will determine how well we do spiritually in any future world! We should not be looking to eventually escape from the challenging world we exist in, but instead focus om mastering it. We live in a challenging and resistant physical world that can bring the most out of us spiritually! Any future existence will only be a continuation of the type of challenging/adventurous exitance we are now in. Cycles will keep happening within and beyond this life, which us hopefully learning valuable lessons with each cycle, so that the next cycle will be a better/healthier one! Toxic and abusive spiritual energy needs to be continuously and effectively dealt with! Healing and becoming healthier is an endless process! Our spiritual sensitivity(psychic/intuitive abilities)need to be continuously developed so as to help one do what it takes to stay healthy in a precarious world full of so many dangers that can readily endanger ones health and survival!

I do discriminate against religious/spiritual beliefs that would endanger my survival if I would embrace them! I have to avoid people who do not value what I have come up with spiritually through a lifetime of extreme effort in this area of exploration! Being so unique does limit who I can effectively relate to! We are strongly affected by who we relate to and need to relate closely only to those who are supportive of the value of what we do! We do have to relate to a lot of different types of people in this world, but we can be really careful where we invest our very precious spiritual energy into!

In a world so adversely impacted by harmful addictions of all kinds and the delusions that enable them! We need to become a lot more rational spiritually and start directing our desires toward healthier results. Addictive type beliefs from the past that really fail to effectively tune us in to the extremely challenging realty we exist in need to become a thing of the past. We can do so much better spiritually on this planet and thus do a lot better in all other areas needed to make this world a much better place to exist in! The serious problems/challenges of this world can be effectively dealt with, but first we have to advance in the spiritual area that underlies all aspects of the challenging physical world we all now exist in!

This world can be very hostile to some “neurologically differently abled” people

As a uniquely talented “neurologically differently abled” person who does not fit into this spiritually backward world very well, I understand how some people are really discriminated against for not fitting into the overly rigid(locked in)status quo of our times. Some “neurologically differently abled” people do find really great success in this world, but an awful lot are destroyed by a world that can be extremely hostile to those who really challenge those who want this world to stay pretty much the way it is and want to see them as having some kind of “disorder”!

It is not like this world does not need to advance to a higher level spiritually and thus have to take advantage of more of the capabilities of all of its residents! We have so many challenges that we can not afford not to use people who have really special abilities! Intuition and psychic ability are spiritual abilities that need to be encouraged! Science need to stop being so rigid and into one size fits all! We are all individuals and unique, not just instinctual advanced apes that a purely mechanical approach will work well on!  We could have a lot more people considered “geniuses” if we would be more open to people with very special abilities!

My spiritual theories and techniques are superior for good reason!!!

I am 68 years old and have survived despite living in a spiritually backward world that destroys people who are “neurologically differently abled” like me. The real test of ones spiritual beliefs/theories is how well they allow one to survive the most intense challenges that life has to offer! When a really  severe crises hits them most people give up and die rather than do the really hard effort to find and do what it takes to survive spiritually! I have faced the challenge to survive continuously in my life, and had to do the hard spiritual work needed to enable my survival. This is a never ending process for me. I do not have escapist type beliefs that belittle the reality we exist in right now and that envision an escape from this type of reality after death!

My spiritual theories are just too advanced and challenging to most people on this Earth, that prefer childlike fantasy type beliefs based on mythology, rather than those that help them to get a better grip on the type of reality we exist in right NOW! Refusing to look into what a spiritual pioneer like me has come up with shows that one does not really desire to be able to survive when the goings get really rough! That one refuses to learn from someone who has learns personally how to deal with the roughest challenges this world has to offer. Most beliefs of the past are designed in a way to be addictive. No wonder why harmful addictions and excessive need for creature comforts are dominant in this spiritually backward world!

I am all over the internet as “astrogoodwin” but still not reaching enough of the right people to get my spiritual theories, techniques and new Astrology system out to the public! I can not do everything on my own and need the right people who are able to really value its merit to be reached! I am not competing with the myth based astrology system that is based on imaginary pictures drawn using the stars(connect the dots) in the sky! My astrology system is quite different than the traditional one that people have come so attached to, and my spiritual theories are also quite different, since they are so much more reality based than traditional spiritual/religious theories.

My spiritual training techniques are also designed to better connect one spiritually/emotionally to the type of challenging reality we live in! We can train to be able to handle the extreme pain and emotion that come with the challenges and resultant traumas of life and survive(heal from) conditions that may seem impossible or require a miracle to do so. New ideas often can bring miraculous results! I am taking on an awful lot, but have my whole life, so this is not new. I can not do this alone! I am a doer and like to be tested! I am not afraid to face the hostility that this world will direct toward someone like me, since I have faced this my entire life and designed my spiritual ideas to enable me to handle the strongest of emotions included hostile ones this world has to offer!!!

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