I am Thomas Goodwin, 70 years old now, but very healthy and fit due to my diet and physical Spiritual training, single, live in San Antonio TX, survive on a veteran pension since I am over 65, poor, and served in the Navy during Wartime, I practice celibacy like a lot of intensely Spiritual people do: meaning I am not looking for a romantic relationship since I need all of my focus directed towards my spiritual mission.

I am a neurologically different with limited visual memory and finer motor skills. I struggle my whole life to survive in a world that I did not fit in. The educational system did not work for me. The job market did not work for me. The Religious/Spiritual institutions did not work for me. The media did not work for me and the medical industry did not work for me. I survive because of the charity of my parents most of my life. I had to develop an extremely strong sense of Spiritual purpose in order to survive in this world and not just give up and allow the stress to destroy my health and kill me. In 1992 the stress came really close to killing me with two near death experiences happening.

I became incredibly obsessed with my desire to make a big impact on the world at that point so as to change the the terrible Spiritual state this world was in as I perceived it. As time went on my diet became stricter and more fine tuned to my needs, since this was not hard for me to do, since my will power was strong and I instinctually knew that my survival and purpose was more important than the temporary pleasure of junk food. I grew up arround natural foods, so I got a head start on realizing how important health was to ones survival and well being. Survival depended on the ability to defend yourself an awful lot when you are Neurologically different in the way that I was.

Sexually I became aware of the dangers posed by getting involved with someone whose lack of understanding could undermine the confidence in your self required to take on the challenges that being different you automatically face. Deep Spiritual connection is often replaced by the drug like affect of sexual intimacy. I thus was celibate a lot of my life and completely since the year 2000. No orgasms with a woman or anyone since 1983 when I ended a 1 year romantic relationship with a woman, but never lived with her. I learned at that time that the bond created in a sexual relationship had a strong affect on ones Spiritual energy, so I I avoided that type of spirtual bonding ever since. I needed all my spirtual energy for the Spiritual mission I was on that revolved around developing a new Spiritual astrology system dealing with the so important physical Spiritual connection that exists between us and the vaste physical universe we are part of and it’s cyclical nature.

When we become more advanced Spiritual we understand that individual Spirits like us are collectively the most powerful force in this universe and Spiritually responsible for how well it functions. We the people have the power Spiritually, not some automatic all powerful pulling spirit/God. As we feel more responsible and empowered Spiritually we then develop the will to take on bigger things and handle the pain that comes with taking on really big challenges and responsibilities. One can not solve problems if one is not connected to the pain or harm associated with it. A lot of people have their ability to feel by eating an unhealthy diet, over indulging in sex and harmful drugs.

We need to finally grow up Spiritually and start really feeling things strongly and develop the strength and maturity to handle the strong emotions that power the Spiritual and when properly channeled can help one to achieve incredible things.

Scientists things they know so, but until they develop a lot more Spiritual maturity will still be like kids playing with toys, except the toys they are playing with cause very serious problems in this world. At this point in my life, I have a very strong one track mind which is determined to bring the better Spiritual theories and techniques I developed over decades of extreme efforts to the world. The astrology system I developed in conjunction with the development of these Spiritual theories and meditative techniques is really my crowning glory. It is beyond me to fully understand and utilize the astrology system I formulated.

A lot of what I started can be taken so much further once a huge number of people with Spiritual expertise put their heads together and use their unique skills to perfect what I started a lot further. I am 70 years old and I need to get in the spotlight soon so that blthe most of what I have to offer can be squeeze out of me before my spirit moves on to new lives and challenges beyond this one. I hope this blog makes good sense to those who read it because it came out like valuable stream of consciousness.

Here is my current physical/Spiritual work out program I am on:. Every morning I do an intense 2.5 mile meditative run/walk starting out hard and slow down as I get tired especially after the first half of the distance covered, then in the afternoon or evening I do a 1.5 intense meditative walk. Everything other day I do strength training trying to exercise as many muscle groups other than my legs that are well trained by running. I do short sprints when doing running or walking when ever I am motivated by traffic, dogs or anything that may affect my meditative state I am in. Also stretch my back and legs with some squats carefully done at the beginning of each session. Also do other stretches I find of value to me after exercise band training.