I am extremely neurodivergent with aphantasia: very limited visual memory

I will do my best to explain how my neurodivergent mind is limited visually. Besides having limited visual memory, I have limited finer motor skills. Both may be related in some way.

It can be very frustrating to try to find good information on my visual memory disabilities. I do have good vision with glasses, just am nearsighted. I do have aphantasia: meaning I can not visualize much at all with my eyes closed. I do not remember practically anything visually beyond on a very basic level. But I do know the names of an awful lot of things in this world I live in and have a good concept of what they are how they function and about whether they function well or are attractive. I may not remember a lot of details, but can remember if a scene is beautiful and remember it’s general features(water, river, mountain, cliff, rocks, trees, etc, but without much detail unless something got my attention that my mind made a special mental note of it. I can not hold a real picture in my minds eye to remember anything. I have to remember with very limited visualization.

I do dream at night and do remember basic plot, emotional impact, and some key characters at times, but practically nothing visual is remembered. Action happens in my dreams that are similar to waking experiences to quite a degree, but do not remember them visually. I can recognize things and remember them often by their name and some of their characteristics, not by a visual image.

I am not a good eyewitness, but can often figure out what went wrong and right in a situation and who was at fault. I may not be able to describe a person, other than by context through what they were doing or basically communicating. I might notice one person was big in size or was muscular. Might remember by making a mental note hair color or if they are well dressed. Just no smaller details at all.

I can not drive safely because I can not keep track visually of everything I need to in order to avoid making dangerous mistakes at times. I often make mistakes in my daily life keeping track of things if I do not focus an awful lot on not making them. I really must focus on not making costly mistakes.

I find that this world is extremely ignorant when it comes to understanding compound or complex visual memory disabilities.That they only deal with them separately as using a search engine on the Internet demonstrates. My great spiritual expertise I have developed does help me a great deal to compensate for my limitations.

Autocratic Mythology/Narrative Based Spiritual Energy is Destroying 0ur World

Back in March of 1992 I had two near death experiences due to the stress of trying to reach the world with my spiritual perspective. My heart was racing, I could not sleep because I had to consciously focus on my breathing to keep my heart functioning safely. I had done extreme physical exercise for quite a while previously and learned breathing techniques to bring my heart safely back under control afterwards. So I had a good technique. Eventually I could not stay awake and a near death experience happened. I had to really fight to not die and leave this planet in the first near death experience. The second near death experience was not like the nightmare type experience the first one was. In the second I connected with the love energy of my Mother, so it was a nice experience. It was my mother that enabled me to incarnate on this planet.

After these two near death experiences, I had to question everyone of my spiritual beliefs and develop better spiritual beliefs that would enable me to better survive in the very challenging spiritual reality that existed in this spiritually backwards world I was living in. Autocratic spiritual beliefs are like an addictive drug. They have an irrational hold on you that prevents one from seeing reality more clearly. Autocratic spiritual energy creates leadership both on the spiritual level and in positions of power in this world. Empires die when they become so autocratic and addictive to power that they lose touch with reality and can not face the fact that they have charted a course of action based on misinformation and have developed a distorted view of reality based on a false narrative that they have become addicted to.

Traditional religion also get addicted to false narratives or mythologies. We need to grow up spiritually and become more rational/reality focused in what we believe spiritually. I had to do this myself in order to survive and have the spiritual beliefs that would enable me to survive. I also had to intensify my physical spiritual/meditative training program. I had to learn to train at an intensity no one else could train at while also focus on getting the nutrition I needed to enable me to handle such training. My heart beats extremely hard at times when I do my intense meditative exercises these days, but it can handle it. I no longer fear my heart will not be able to handle any stress that will put it into a very intense sort of “fight or flight” state.

I am use to people not understanding me or believing what I tell them about myself. Or respecting my unique view of the world or what I have of value to the world spiritually. It really takes a serious crises to force people to separate themselves from the mythologies/narratives/propaganda that they have been strongly indoctrinated from an early age by the society the were born into. I can shock some people into seeing reality more clearly when they are more receptive to me due to facing challenges in their lives that force them to be open to something new spiritually in order to survive. Surviving a very serious crises can sometimes require one do some really deep soul searching and then have the willingness to become open to an entirely new perspective on reality which challenges ones core spiritual beliefs that one has had ones entire life up to that time. It has been over 30 years after my near death experiences and in that time I have developed so much in what I have to offer to this world spiritually.

I am a neurologically different spiritual pioneer trying to get my very valuable spiritual theories and meditative techniques and new spiritual astrology system out to the public. I have so much valuable stuff here on WordPress. It may not be perfect, but it should motivate people to further develop what I have started with a similar spiritual intent as I had.

I respect the healthy human body and like nudism

I am extremely spiritual, but not a prude. The naked body helps one to not only connect spiritually with the part of nature within yourself, but also with with the natural world around you. Focusing on taking really good care of your body is so important. Good nutrition and good exercise is valuable to the body ‘s spiritual well-being..Exercises can be made meditative. All body parts needs exercise including one sexual organs. Masturbation can be done in a meditative exercise and has been shown to be a healthy exercise if done properly and not done excessively. I have a blog post on all types of meditative exercise on this site that is in the menu. Meditation is a breathing exercise with certain movement techniques use to enhance it.

We need to become a lot more comfortable about our bodies and show respect to it and all its valuable body parts. We should not be ashamed of it. Traditional religion have a lot of inadequate spiritual beliefs because they were created during a lot more primitive time. Before science enhanced our understanding of reality mythology played a strong role and religion was less not that advanced because it was too strongly impacted by the mythology of the times of its formation.. Autocratic overly controlling beliefs were part of them. .Most were not that comfortable with the human body and its desires that they were not very competent at controlling so as to direct them toward creating positive results. We badly need to advance further spiritually and learn to respect and value the human body even when naked of adornment. And learn to take good care of it and no longer be ashamed of it in its natural state.

Where have I lived and visited

I have a lot traveled, but not for fun. I went where I thought I could reach people with my astrology system and Spiritual ideas. Learned a lot. I was born in Massachusetts, grew up in Goffstown, NH. Bought land in Stuart, Virginia. Served in Navy in Norfolk VA. Visited Guatanamo Cuba, Jamaica, Virgin islands and Porto Rico while in Navy on board a ship.  Went to    Navy school in Orlando, Florida. Visited Palm Beach Florida also while on board ship. Went to boot camp near Chicago at Great Lakes. Visited Parents who had moved to Placerville, California. Brother near Roseville, California. Sister near Santa Cruz, California. Lived a long time in Roanoke, VA. Moved to Texas to Sister house between Dallas and Fort Worth Texas. Moved with her to San Antonio, Texas area. The moved to Houston, TX area, then to Las Vegas, and finally back to San Antonio.

My Latest Diet That Works Best for Me

I eat a very simple diet that consists of oatmeal, spinach, with some peanuts. I can eat other vegetables that are nutritious. I eat fruit sometimes. I eat whole food with fiber to feed good gut bacteria. I try to eat only when I feel hunger. I do not use drugs or take medications. I do not add spices to enhance flavor. I eat for performance. I drink only water. I take lot of vitamins. A multivitamin, vitamin B complex tablet, and a calcium-magnesium-zinc tablet twice a day. I take 500 mg vitamin C with every meal. I use some “nosalt” for potassium and only use salt sparingly. I am neurological different with limited visual memory and limited finer motor skills and do intense meditative exercises. So I am very unique in my nutritional needs.

Disclaimer: Everyone has to figure out what works best for them. Nutrition is something that it is often hard to get consistent advice, since so much conflicting advice from “experts” exist. So be careful and make gradual adjustments to diet using reliable sources of information. My diet could be extremely risky for most other people. You have to adjust your diet at your own risk. Or get professional guidance by someone with expertise in nutrition.

We get the elections, the democracy and the hard spiritual lessons we deserve!

We get the type of elections we collectively deserve, we get the type of democracy we deserve, and we face the hard spiritual lessons we deserve! Those in elite positions in our society will do what they can to hold onto the power, wealth, and influence they so strongly crave and will often do what ever it takes to maintain their positions, playing the game in any way that seems to work for them even if by so doing they maintain the spiritual backwardness of this world by so doing and help set up future crises as a result. Often winning an election during times of crises is not the price these politicians may envision. They can get into a situation that is more challenging than their extra big ego can handle and become the center of the hard spiritual lessons a society as a whole needs to learn. Losing an election however can give one the chance to look at things from different angles and reassess or reevaluate things and thus deepening ones spiritual understanding of what went wrong and continues to go wrong.

As a spiritual pioneer, I am willing to take controversial positions and explore differing perspective, since that comes with the territory of what I do. Those addicted to the traditional, or they way things currently are done in this world will not be able to relate to a extremely unique differently abled person like me, so their is little value in me trying to be popular with them. I have to choose my friends carefully in order to survive and contribute what i have to offer to the world spiritually, which is also true for everyone to some degree.

Reality can be really rough on those who violate spiritual laws in order to gain positions of power and influence. This is becoming more true as we become more technologically advanced and the consequences of making big mistakes becomes a lot rougher. We need to continuously investigate everything that is going wrong within our society and find ways to improve them, or we will face really hard spiritual lessons in the future in a way that we will not prepared enough to absorb their value and thus be capable of bringing about a lot of really positive change in the future as a result.

We can stay divisive and allow the people in positions of power and influence in our society to manipulate us, or we can do the hard spiritual work required to change the spiritual climate in this world in a way that these manipulative power hungry people will lose their power and influence over them, and thus have to change for the better or fall by the wayside.

I have so much spiritual information I have become aware of on this WordPress site. Please skim through it at least!

The World and the Spiritual is complicated and so am I!

I am a neurologically differently abled spiritual pioneer that has so much to offer to the world in this area of my expertise!  The limitations I was born with required me(in order to survive in a hostile world) to become very good in the only area I was really capable and not very limited  in!

I unfriended someone on facebook that did not like me using the term “inadequate beliefs” and said you can not coerce people to change their beliefs! I responded that I can not coerce people to improve their spiritual beliefs (theories), but I can choose who I have as allies!
My value to this world is limited to my very specialized abilities in the area of spiritual development and my survival here depends on having people connected with me that value what I have to offer to the world!

So many people seem to be quite dense when it comes to understanding people that take a real effort to understand! Not everyone is simple, but the world and the spiritual that underlies it is not simple either!

So many people do not understand how difficult it is to bring positive change to this world! But spiritual maturity is very lacking on this spiritually backward planet!

Overly simplistic and polarized thinking will not solve the very complex and serious problem of the very complex age we now live in! Crises will keep happening until we learn to handle the level of spiritual difficulty that is required to properly deal with them!

I have so many really valuable spiritual blog posts on this WordPress site to skim through and find what is of value to you!

 

The role the spiritual plays in surviving any crises including our present one

I have lived on the edge spiritually and physically my whole life! I have had crisis after crisis in my life as a result of being born differently abled neurologically with very specialized capabilities! Between crises I felt compelled to train for the next crisis so I would survive it! I am living on the edge in this current crises also! The spiritual plays a lot bigger role than most people believe  in helping one survive a crises and not be done in by it! I know this from personal experience!

Becoming  healthier is not easy and takes hard work to do so!  A healthier lifestyle takes spiritual will power to achieve!  One needs to work hard to eat healthier, exercise, and to improve one spiritual programming/theories so that one will be better able to do what it takes to  handle the really big challenges life can bring ones way!  I have read articles lately about how aerobic exercise with its positive affect on the heart and respiratory system helps people survive the coronavirus! The spirit can not be healthy if the body has a weak heart or lung problems! My meditative running deal with these important physical-spiritual problems so that one will survive better in a very challenging world with so many serious problems that will bring one crises after another if not better addressed! This survival type energy that good spiritual training can help create can help us better cope with and address these problems! I am a spiritual pioneer that has been forced to the sidelines in this world all of my life and this need to change and change very soon!

We are so backward spiritually on this planet and we are paying a heavy price because of this!

My spiritual theories&techniques are needed more than ever on this spiritually backward planet!

Did do my morning 2 mile meditative run! I am able to survive in a world that has an awful lot of toxic spiritual energy that tends to be enabled by the inadequacies of our traditional religions with their lock-in spiritual theories that they often accept on blind faith! My spiritual theories/programming enables me to handle extremely challenging meditative runs! If I had the spiritual theories that are already easily available on this Earth I would not be able to handle the challenges of my life or the meditative runs that enable me to handle them! I can handle low energy states better than anyone due to my unique training!

I can handle the low energy states the body needs to go into to handle stress without harmful consequences like depression, and unhealthiness! Being unhealthy or depressed can really threaten ones survival! During a crises like the one we are having now my spiritual ideas and techniques are needed more than ever! But they are not readily available to the public to test them and find out their benefits. Beliefs(spiritual theories) of all kinds need to be tested and continuously improved on!

I have so many blog posts on this WordPress site that deal with these spiritual theories and techniques!

The disease of “Arrogance” is so strong during this Coronavirus crises!

Arrogance not only limits how well people can understand the complexity of others that are quite different from themselves but also limits how well they are able to understand the very complex and serious problems of our times!

I do understand the complexity of people who are “differently abled neurologically” extremely well due to my own direct experience with it being one myself! I am not autistic, but still with my visual memory limitations and limited finer motor skills I do definitely  fit into the category of neurologically different! Read my other blog posts to find out more about my uniqueness.   I saw a movie about the extremely challenging life of Temple Grandin the autistic person who is now a college professor and who designed more humane and efficient slaughter houses for cows after having spent quite a lot of time growing up around the cattle business and understanding animals in a way only a person autistic like her could!

With the corona virus crises happening, I am facing really extreme emotions due to what is happen around me and the part I must play in it! Emotions only I could handle because of the advance meditative techniques I developed and utilize along with the new and advanced astrology system I developed and also utilize to understand what is uniquely going on deep inside of me! My advanced spiritual theories that my astrology system is based on also play a role!

So many people tend to be so stuck in their ways and unable to make the effort to advance further spiritually in order to understand people that deal with a lot more complexity in their life by virtue of their “uniqueness” than they do! We live in a world full of arrogance which starts on the spiritual level and then creates polarization which negatively affects politics, science, and religion along with all the professionals that think they know a lot more than they actually do about the complexity of the reality we exist in!

The disease of arrogance is very present in this spiritually backward world and can be seen all over the internet and on facebook itself especially during the current crisis we are going through! I keep telling people the truth tends to be in the complicated middle and one needs to try to see things from many sides and angles and work hard to put all pieces of the puzzle of reality together as well as one is able!

Here is a link about Temple Grandin, her autism, and here struggle to be understood by a very insensitive world:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Temple_Grandin?fbclid=IwAR0kMJopj-fY2WbcC1l-JvUALjHRAnPTayerXlyloLqwelS8bYXYEPHhAjE

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