Everyday I do left handed weightlifting along with rehab for my right arm/shoulder, an intense quarter mile run, many extremely intense and painful 3/4 of mile meditative walks! I do push my limits and the intensity of my meditative walks do make my pain in my right arm/shoulder worst! Being a spiritual pioneer that tries to challenge the limits of what I can handle spiritually, I try to make my cat-like crouched meditative technique even more intense so as to feel the pain even more acutely. I battle the pain in order to learn to handle it better, and also heal myself. The ability to handle pain really well is needed in order to develop the intense spiritual strength required to handle the really really serious problems of this challenging reality we are part of……………………………….
I do pay for how hard I push it with arm and shoulder pain at night! But, I am getting more use to intense pain and still get some good sleep! At least I can sleep lying down which I could not do for 4 weeks after the accident/fall/dislocated shoulder. More than a dislocation happened in this fall, my body is feeling pain in elbow, hand, and right side of chest! I did not think of other injuries when at the ER when I had a dislocated shoulder that demanded immediate attention. Have been on my own medically since that ER visit which suits me fine. I do best dealing with my medical issues on my own, and can not afford to do otherwise………………………………………………………………………………………………………
I do have serious survival issues that make so much in my life extremely difficult and society plays an extremely strong role in this due to its failures in serving me as well as it does others who have more “normal” needs! Society provides jobs, housing, and all sorts of public services for people who are very normal in their abilities, but is way too backward spiritually to understand and help address the basic need of someone as uniquely abled as me. People assume I fit in to society a lot more than I do and can be quite clueless as to the real circumstances I face trying to survive in this world. I am pretty much one of a kind and that is why I am the spiritual pioneer I am! I do not qualify for social security retirement due to limited work history and would not be alive today if not for the help of family and friends…………………………………………………………………
So many people with positions of power and influence in this world are really spoiled and arrogant, often blaming the victims of their inadequate policies/actions and abilities rather than becoming more responsible in their approach. They become too intoxicated by the money they make and power they are able to yield! Heavy spiritual consequences result in this highly technological age we now exist in when a society lacks an adequate level of spiritual maturity to deal with the serious problems within it! Seeing things from many sides and angles in all of its complexity is not easy! People often would rather have a tribal type mentality that irrationally ignores or condemns that which they are not familiar with! Religions and societies can be quite tribal and irrational in how they evaluate the value of what they believe to be true as compared to what others not in their group/ organization believe………………………………………………………………………….
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