I have disconnected from Medicaid and will depend only on VA for medical help which I now have a higher priority since I receive a veterans pension! When over 65 I get the benefits I would have got earlier if I qualified as disabled! I had to survive most of my life with the help of friends and relatives since I could not get any reasonable means of support/income otherwise.. I could have gotten help from society(social services) if I convinced them I had serious mental problems and then they would put me on drugs. My spiritual skills may eventually be appreciated, but for most of my life I had to fight really hard to stay heathy and sane in a spiritually backward world that forces a lot of people to get desperate and either end up in prison or on drugs/medications!

One really has to personally feel the injustice and spiritually backwardness of this world in order to find a solution to it. I have great intensity which is very capable of defending myself against those with a collective mindset that is not capable of understanding a lot of the problems in this world or people who are directly affected by them! One does not achieve an awful lot in this world unless one has first been made aware personally of how serious the problems really are!

It takes great motivation and effort well directed for one to achieve really great things in this world. Often those who do not make much effort to achieve very much will try to put down those who claim to be more aware and capable than them! Some people can just not handle the fact that some people are superior to them as a result of putting forth the effort to be so! We all need to work hard to improve and to take advantage of those who are more capable than we are to help us to do so. Sometimes we just have to progress a lot on our own using our creativity to figure out things that no one seems to have figured out well enough!